As a child, my way of escape was playing in solitude. I could play for hours alone, using my imagination and a few props. The Holy Spirit has now shown me as an adult that I need to take this tendency toward reclusion and convert it into a more positive expression. Instead of a time of closing others out, it should be a time of going into the secret place with my Heavenly Father.
Perversion of Truth – The enemy will take a characteristic or God given ability and pervert it. The purpose of the perversion is to hide your true identity and purpose.
I had always prayed for the kind of discipline Jesus had when He would go into the mountains alone to spend time with His Father…not knowing I had the discipline, it was just mis-directed.
I believe our heavenly Father has designed us all to be able to be alone with Him; But this ability has been perverted and instead we use activities and diversions to fill that place which God desires to fill.
The Holy Spirit used my personal season of physical affliction to teach me how to enter in to His presence. I have found freedom, peace and joy; And most of all I can just sit silently and wait for Him.
He now speaks to me in volumes. I watch clouds, animals, anything in God's creation. God uses it all to speak to His children. I open the Word of God and I go specifically to scriptures for my moment, my season, my purpose. How great is our God!!
How often the very thing that we see as a flaw in our lives is merely a truth about who we are that has been perverted by the enemy. In taking the time to be alone in the Presence of the Lord, He unveils Truth that leads to freedom.
Ask the Lord to heal you of the root cause of your inability to be still and to be alone, because it is in this place of aloneness and quiet that you meet Him…face to face.